Only 2 more cities. Only 3 more weeks. Only 12 more shows. Only 21 days. I kinda envy Heavy the trip to South America (SA from now on). I gave up the job on purpose. One thing is the theater situation and the other kite. That one word. That one feeling. That's something that might be getting me a little bit insane. I just dropped 6 months of work in SA, my supposed to be dream work for being a kitebording instructor at Hel Peninsula. I got the job. The one in charge - Kociak, promised "I will make an instructor out of you. Welcome to the team." Only thing I think about in my free time is kiteboarding. Don't know if that's some kind of a illusion of life I could have, maybe dreamed of. Don't know anything. Only thing I'm sure of is that after this few months I will (hope I will) know what should be my way. I couldn't look at my self if I wouldn't take that opportunity. I might be on the best way of making my dreams come true.

When you realize some things to yourself thing tend to get simpler. I will not be a amazing, brilliant sound mixer, designer for that matter. As I use to say, you won't jump higher than your ass is. I don't have a rich daddy, don't have any connections in showbiz, I'm on top of what I can get from my job right now. I could go work abroad - also touring jobs, could get some bands work with me. That's it. Then what? I don't want to get only money from the things I do. Maybe I'm in some kind of crisis, maybe I just have enough, but I think I need more than money. I don't want a mortgage. I would have to stick to my current job for few years to get an apartment without one. I can either start playing lottery or just try and to my best to follow my dreams. Got 6 free months, got some cash - why not try! Stick to it and try to make the best you can get from that! Keep my fingers crossed, hell yeah!